Many people arrive here without meaning to.
Something has shifted.
Old ways of seeing no longer hold, but nothing solid has replaced them yet.
Life still looks the same on the outside, yet inside it can feel unfamiliar, unsettled, or strangely empty.
You may feel more sensitive than before.
Less certain.
Less interested in the things that once motivated you.
At times, even disconnected from the person you thought you were.
This is often the part that no one talks about.
After insight.
After clarity.
After the sense that something true has been seen.
And yet daily life does not suddenly make sense.
Relationships feel different.
Meaning feels thinner.
You may wonder if you have gone backwards, or if something has gone wrong.
Nothing has gone wrong.
There is a phase many people pass through when awakening begins to touch ordinary life.
It can be confusing, disorienting, and frequently misunderstood.
Not because it is unusual, but because it does not fit the stories we are told about spiritual change.
This page exists to quietly name that place —
and to offer orientation, not instruction.
You don’t need to fix yourself.
You don’t need to move forward.
You don’t need to become anything.
You may simply need to understand where you are.
The Middle of Awakening
Feeling Lost?
Feeling Lost
Sometimes life feels like it’s shifting beneath your feet.
The roles, routines, and relationships that once grounded you suddenly feel heavy, confusing, emotional swings, greater sensitivity, feeling detached, questioning everything, loss of old identity even empty.
You may feel isolated, misunderstood, or even like you are “losing your mind.”
This is the Middle of Awakening — a place where the old self is dissolving and the new self hasn’t fully emerged. s. Naming it helps: it’s called the Middle of Awakening (MOA). Knowing there’s a name can be a relief — you’re not failing or broken.
“I felt like no one understood me.
Learning that this stage had a name made me stop blaming myself.” — S.
The Middle of Awakening
Common Experiences
Surrounded by Narcissism and pain.
Loss of "who you are"
Emotional waves and confusion
Physical fatigue, anxiety, or restlessness
Overwhelm from too much advice, teachings, or practices
Shifts in identity — roles as parent, partner, or professional may no longer fit
Questioning everything they once believed
Frustration, fear, or a sense of powerlessness
Difficult relationships that amplify isolation
Many also experience the “Dark Night of the Soul,” confronting old traumas, patterns, and beliefs. It can feel scary and disorienting, yet it is a natural stage of growth.
The Middle of Awakening is a dangerous ground.
“I kept questioning myself and the world.
Seeing that others had been here too gave me permission to breathe.” — A.
The Middle of Awakening
Recognise the signs
The signs are all around you
A restless mind that questions everything
Heightened sensitivity to people and environments
Waves of emotion that feel unpredictable
Physical symptoms like tension, fatigue, or discomfort
A sense of being alone even among loved ones
These experiences aren’t “wrong.” They are the natural movements of transformation, like a storm clearing the air for new growth.
“I thought I was losing it.” — L
The MIddle of Awakening
Finding and Living from the Centre
Even in the middle of chaos, there is a centre — a place of calm, stability, and clarity that remains.
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Phase 1: Finding the Centre helps you recognize where you are, understand the process, and relieve confusion. By the end of Phase 1, most people feel steadier, clearer, and less alone in what they’re experiencing
Phase 2: Living from the Centre supports ongoing alignment, guiding you back to balance whenever the waves of struggle feel overwhelming. Here we do not remove the struggle - but change your relationship with it.
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Small practices help anchor you: noticing your breath, connecting with your body, observing emotions without judgment, and maintaining simple daily routines.
The struggles of the Middle of Awakening are not a test — they are a natural transition towards the truth of you.
Read about the process here.
“Phase 1 helped me stop trying to fix myself. Phase 2 reminds me to return to calm when I forget.” — M.
The Middle of Awakening
You Are Not Alone
Thousands of people pass through this Middle each year.
Feeling lost or disoriented does not mean you are failing. Many have felt the same isolation, doubt, and fear, and have gone on to integrate these experiences into deeper clarity and stability.
Connection helps: whether through support programs, community, or guidance from someone who understands, it validates your experience and makes the Middle feel less lonely.
“Knowing I wasn’t alone made a huge difference. I could finally breathe and let the process unfold.” — K.
The Middle of Awakening
Reflection and Grounding
You don’t need to fix anything. What helps is simple, steady attention and compassion for yourself.
Pause and notice: Check in with your body, breath, and emotions each day.
Journal: Write down what arises — thoughts, feelings, shifts. Seeing them outside your head helps.
Gentle grounding: Walk, stretch, cook, or spend time in nature.
Compassion: Remember, this stage is natural. You are not broken.
Support: Seek safe guidance if possible. Connection stabilizes the field.
Journeying through the Middle of Awakening is not about achieving a state; it’s about noticing, acknowledging, and caring for yourself in the middle of transformation.
“I started small — just noticing each wave without reacting.
Slowly, I felt anchored even as everything else shifted.” — K.